I was in Switzerland in a Tantra I intensive Group given by the famous Therapist Rajen (Alan Lowen)
My mother had birthday, and I had to phone her… I called her, she said your father is in the hospital because of prostrate surgery…quite dangerous… you have to phone him…
This was the worst thing what I could do…
I phoned him, and he asked where I am … I am in Switzerland and have a good time in the Tantra group.
My father answered when will you become seriously? I replied never, that is boring, making love makes more sense…
And then he told me that both of his sons have failed in his firm and I am the only one…
My twin brother has slept with my father’s girlfriend when he is in the hospital.
And my older brother wants to marry a black Brazilian girl (My father was a famous Neo-Nazi… ) He fired both.
My oldest sister resists separating from her spouse because he was an unemployed architect and so she should never visit my father again…
And my youngest sister left Germany and continue to study in the USA…
Looks weird…
After the Tantra group, I met a girl, and we made Tantra. We got so deep in Love, and we both had very high spiritual experience… I experience God as an Atheist… God is love!
All this negativity about sex is B. S. and a lie …
Later my girlfriend got pregnant even I was physically not able to procreate…
And 3 month later, she delivered too early, the baby died…
In December/ Christmas I had to visit my family, but in this case, I suffered so much for the miscarriage… And to tell that my parents would make it worse …
I didn’t visit them on Christmas. And I didn’t like to sing with them the Nazi songs…
After Christmas I got an ultimatum from my father, I should work full time and marry… If not,- separation.
I ignored that.
I lost my job, and my commune … and the relationship went worse because my girlfriend could not cope with the pain and became a work alcoholic …
And I knew in my heart that everything should be so and this was the call of the divine.
Then I met a friend, and he spoke insane, but his eyes told something else.
I accepted him as a spiritual master, and my spirituality went through the roof…
I visited one time more my parents, made it clear that they are the biggest obstacle in my life and that I separate from them… And my father wanted it so…
And 2 months later I got spiritual everything what I wanted and even more…
Go with your heart… that is much more.
(Let the dead bury the dead and come, Jesus)
My Video: Episode 3, The divine call https://youtu.be/8z7j1GOytuI
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