I was 24, started with a new study, fully supported by the government in Bremen. And additionally, I studied psychology and went to self-experience groups, attended Bioenergetic, Meditation, Yoga, Qigong –classes.
Three years later, I was in an awful relationship and lived in an outstanding, lovely community together with devotees of Bhagwan…
I flew to Vancouver to make again the famous Westcoast Trail on Vancouver Island…I went by ferry to the Island and I flirted with an American Indian girl… It worked out, it was very wild, but it was not what I wanted, it closed my heart… I needed more love…
After the trail, I tried to hitchhike to L.A.
It was so difficult to get a ride… Still, it was a so beautiful landscape, foggy high mountains, desert and an additional trail on Mount Helen where I got under deep snow… It was so cold in my tent that was loaded with snow…
Again I had to hitchhike more to the south, it was too cold…
And then I could not go further than Portland…
I looked for a hotel, met a disciple of Bhagwan, and we went to the Ashram of Bhagwan… Rajneeshpuram
Bhagwan had just started to talk again after he was 6 years in silence.
When I arrived, I met a previous girlfriend… And I told her that I could not open my heart anymore, and the trip was too hard for me.
She said fine, then attend here some groups.
I never have seen anywhere else a place with so much love… It was just a paradise for me…
And outside of this Ashram were huge signboards who warned the people to enter this Ashram…. A place with so much love abused from common people…
I attended there two groups and in the morning we went to the lectures of Bhagwan… and he addressed my problems inside and spoke how of to deal with that- without having personal contact with me…
In the first group, I got beaten up…
The Therapists had been the best in the world…
As usual, I was the worst case…
“When you are not doing meditation and bioenergetic every day and therapy groups every week your difficult Childhood will bring you always down…” They said.
And I did so, made what they said to me. One year later I was out of my sorrow.
Two years later, the underdog became the miracle and the spiritual wonder child…
You never can gain a high spiritual state without removing your traumas… and that is very painful. Thousands of years ago, they have created very painful body exercises to let go the body identification, go beyond the worldly attachment and to discover the Divine…
With the Therapy of Bioenergetic, Encounter, Primal and Tantra, you don’t need these painful body exercises anymore. Still, you have to go through emotional pain like crazy to go beyond…
And afterward, you really enjoy your life without a worldly surrogate,- and that is comparable from your old life to the paradise.
For free is that not!
My Video: Episode 11, How to find the paradise? https://youtu.be/tBIB6tKNqfY
My Audio on Podcast: RELAX WITH MEDITATION or see link in the end.
My Audio: https://rudizimmerer.s3-ap-southeast-1.amazonaws.com/6/Episode+11%2C+How+to+find+the+paradise.mp3