In my childhood there was no love at all, and punishment like crazy…
We, my twin brother and I were unwanted kids that even had been in the first 3 months in quarantine… love and mother’s milk was never an option!
I got used to it and my heart was closed so that I could not feel so much… Still in my heart was the longing for love…
After a very turbulent life until 25 years I was still alive… I had faced quite often the death… Still, I was afraid of women or better to be rejected by women…
I changed my life from the focus to be successful to be happy…
In the previous episodes, I told from my Tantra groups and from experience love in these groups.
After the Tantra I group, I attended a Reiki workshop and there our love story started…
Evelyn was 24 years old and I was 26 years… We were both students. She had made a lot of Tantra before and was in a broken relationship. She looked desperately for a new great love and so we both fitted ideal together.
Our goal was total surrender to that unknown person and got the unknown…
Tantra is using the sex to discover the love and the sex is just only the vehicle, in reality sex is not important for the spirit. If you give the Soul what it wants that means – Love and the body what it needs – Sex, you can go much deeper into the love… because the sex is not anymore, an obstacle it is the drive to go deeper and deeper in love…
First, we were giving us Reiki and it became much more. We were sitting in the lotus position (male is sitting on the ground, crossed legs, and the woman is sitting on the lab of the male) with the cloth on for hours… nothing more… no sex just to feel the other person, your own emotions, and let it happen as it happen. After some time, the emotions breaking out, be it sadness, anger or huge love… Everything was and is okay…
For sure we had also awesome sex together…
We could feel each other even at 1000km distance. Love has no border…
Our love grew and it became hell and heaven… Every day it became harder to endure our feelings, often I was so desperate…. Was our love not total craziness, … For what is all these suffering good? Nothing made sense, but to give up… No way!
We both got very high spiritual experience and God showed up and was waiting for me.
I was a stout atheist and got never baptized….
After 9.5 weeks our love ended…. And then a love video with this title 9.5 weeks we’re running in the cinema… Coincident?
My whole life changed I could feel bliss everywhere…
Is not madness much better than all these wise words?
My Video: Episode 17 the greatest love? https://youtu.be/vO7zLGlW1b8
My Audio: https://rudizimmerer.s3-ap-southeast-1.amazonaws.com/6/Episode+16+the+greatest+love.mp3