I had an accident and my spine was in an awful condition… I could not work or meditate anymore…
I left the Ashram in India to go to a wonderful Tibetan Doctor Mrs. Dr. Lodden in Varkala, 30 Km distance from Ashram… She was just like a goddess of healing…
I miss her a lot. I hope she is out of the jail in China, she wanted to visit her parents…
I got daily my Acupuncture by her and when I was under her treatment the great Tsunami who killed 250000 people flooded also the beach of Varkala… Varkala is built on a cliff, so 50 to 100m up on the ocean…
After her treatment, I wanted to go over the beach to my room as usual… instead to go around the horseshoe bay … But the police stopped me and the people looked very seriously so I had to go the long way to home … I stopped at my Tibetan restaurant were we Mrs. Lodden and I often ate together…
They explained me the whole situation and I thought on our Ashram that was not protected against the big wave at all… build on an island…
Nevertheless, I had to get more treatment from Mrs. Dr. Lodden and I wanted to go back to the Ashram and to leave the Ashram forever… The time was over…
After one week I drove back to the Ashram to pick up my stuff, but we could not go to the Ashram. The Ashram was a mess. First, they had to repair the broken things, electrical wire… and to clean up…
Quite a lot of people died…
We slept in the University of our Ashram with all the Indians of our island…
I wanted to rest, and this didn’t work out…
So, I had to consoled all the Indians and people who have lost somebody…
It was so hard to see the suffering of the Indians… I have done my best and shared my time with them, meditated with them…
I could meditate again after the treatments and do my Qigong.
After some days, we could go back to the Ashram… I picked up my stuff and went to Dharamshala the place of the Dalai Lama…. To get some more treatments from Tibetan Doctors…
Somehow, I wanted to live in a nice place to relax to heal my back and never go back to the Ashram to remember that time… I met a girl in Dharamshala and she recommend me Krabi/Thailand and I moved to this place…
I had to go to a Doctor for a working visa… I was waiting and somebody mentioned the word tsunami, I broke out in tears… I had suppressed all my emotions during this time…
We never can escape from our traumas and we should work on them…
Years later, when I came back from sailing… I was exhausted and the phone was ringing nonstop for a half hour until I picked it up… Guess, tsunami alert.
The memories of the last tsunami overwhelmed me… I was shocked… And thought I cannot. No, no… not again…
I had to sail the catamaran out of the marina to a safer place… It was so hard for me to function and get back to the marina. I parked the car in the middle of the street with the permission of the police, run to the marina… The police were everywhere with speedboats and guided us… For 2 hours I was trying to find a place where I could anchor the boat… It was so awful…
My Video: Episode 23 Tsunami trauma https://youtu.be/KbwlKdmInsY
My Audio: https://rudizimmerer.s3-ap-southeast-1.amazonaws.com/6/Episode+23+Tsunami+trauma.mp3